I truly believe that every single person has a story to tell. Not the story that you pretend to be a part of or the mask that you share with the world. But the pure, raw and unique story that you, like me, decide to hide. We all have flaws, imperfections and things that we flat out do not like to flaunt about ourselves. My goal in starting this blog is to inspire each person that decides to read, to embrace what makes you, you! Stop hiding from the world because you feel as if you have nothing to give. Struggles that we face, experiences that we go through, need to be shared! Life is tough and so many times I myself have even wanted to give up. I never actually thought that was possible for someone who claims to be a Christian, which I am, but life just gets ya down sometimes. I had an epiphany a few weeks ago while fishing with my children. I have two wonderful children, a girl, and a boy and we have just recently begun exploring the joys of fishing. My husband and I have awesome memories as children fishing with our families and we just decided one day that it was time to make the same memories with our own kiddos. It dawned on me after casting out my rod, that I was a lot like a bobber. I was being tossed into the deep lake of life and like a bobber, I could not seem to keep my head above the water. It was as though every single day I was being bitten like a worm on the end of a hook and pulled under from attacks from the enemy. I was hiding from family and very close friends my true self. All the emotions that had been built up from past and present situations that were out of my control, I buried deep within. I would walk around with my big ole’ fake smile like my life was perfect and it is so far from that. I needed to stop hiding. I needed to remove the mask that I had placed upon myself to seem as though I had everything all figured out.
The good, the bad and the ugly parts of me I began to share with my Sunday school class. I teach high school teenagers every week at my local church. Stepping out of my comfort zone and sharing my struggles with my class, has not only opened doors for them to share their struggles, but it has changed my life as well. Just like most wives and mothers, we compare ourselves so much to each other, that we are afraid to share what makes us vulnerable. We like to seem as though we have it all together. I for one will boldly shout that I am a hot mess 90% of the time. I wing it, everything that is. But God spoke so plainly to me about writing and starting a blog. I am terrified quite frankly, but I feel as though someone needs some inspiration. Someone needs to know that its ok to be a mess and to not have all the answers. You have no idea how many people that may be crying out for just one person to accept them for who they are. We are all fearfully and wonderfully made. There is someone that has either gone through, is currently going through, or about to go through the same kind of storms you have been through. So there is no reason to hide. I know that the mundane of life can even bring you down. As a wife of 15 years and a mother to a 12-year-old and 8-year- old, I totally understand that we all wear many hats and sometimes we feel like our day to day lives have no meaning. But I am here to beg the differ. Keep on keeping on, shine that light from within, throw that mask off and just be you!